Pain

something I found on my work laptop, fairly recent but I couldn't date it precisely

Evil and alive
my heart and my conscience
without the pain
would solemnly swear
to hurt you again

Helpless and hurt
my gut and my soul
without the pain
would turn into vapor
and leave me a shell

Guilty and shamed
my mind and my body
without the pain
would lose to the impulse
and do it again

Crushed and destroyed
my love by its lonesome
without the pain
would wither like flowers
never love ever more

The pain is worth it
The pain is learning
The pain is what makes me go on

Without the pain I'll never hear music
Without the pain I'll never see sunshine
Without the pain I'll never know you.